Celebrating Toronto Black Artists

"So, do you know Drake?"
As someone who travels a lot to the U.S., I get asked this a lot and I know I am not the only one. I am definitely a big fan, but I always think about how incredible it will be when people can run down a list of brilliant Black creative talent. From WondaGurl to Lillian Allen, Toronto is as intergenerational as it is diverse and that is why I am so excited for the 'Scratch & Mix Project'

'The exhibition

Between April 18 and August 30, 2015, the Art Gallery of Ontario will host the Scratch & Mix Exhibition. It will feature the work of 11 young artists who participated in the project’s GTA-wide youth arts competition and were selected by a jury. Their work offers each artist’s unique take on the theme “Empowering the Black Community.” Each piece is also inspired by the AGO’s Jean-Michel Basquiat: Now’s The Time exhibition and reflects a collaboration between the artists and a seasoned artist mentor.

On the AGO's site, you can check out bios of all 11 artists.

 

Many of the artists have great websites or Instagrams including Komi Olaf. Below is an incredible representation of one of Toronto's most loved artists Amanda Parris.

The artists work span across multiple mediums, including photography from artists like Ebti Nabag & Jah Grey. From His site:

 

Arists come from a variety of creative backgrounds including students of the transformative watah school, headed by D'bi including Angelique Jordan.

 

The launch is on April 18th and should be incredible. Learn more here.

French language interpretation is available upon request.

 

 

 

 

Immigrant Reflections & 'The Black Experience Project'

I want to first name that 'Toronto has played host to no less than three distinct peoples (the Huron, the Haudenosaunee, and the Mississauga), two different cultures (Iroquoian and Algonquian), and was the site of many trade gatherings and inter-tribal ceremonies.' source I can't express my past immigrant experience without acknowledging that now I know that this land is Indigeneous and we all have a responsibility to work in solidarity with First Peoples for justice. 

When I was a little girl, I traveled across the ocean in my best dress from Port Of Spain, Trinidad to Toronto, Canada. I remember the environmental differences clearly, the color of the sky, the temperature, but particularly the smells. Gone were the sweet island scents of fruit and flowers cooled by ocean breezes and in its place was the smell of 'cold'. These were the easiest things to get used to, although I have never grown to love long and persistent winters. What was most difficult was understanding who I was in this new place. For any immigrant, the process of settling in a new country is complex, requiring both a lot of courage and humility. I came from a country where Shadeism had a strong hold, but where Black, Indigenous & People Of Colour were the majority and where diversity was expected. This diversity was reflected in the sheer number of islands of the Carribbean & nearby South America and the innumberable amount of ethno-cultural mixings of the people you encountered.

In Toronto, I became aware of how different I was by the questions I was met with. Most frequently, people who were not from richly diverse places would always ask, "So you are from Jamaica, right? or "Why is your accent so funny?" I have so much love for all the islands, but any one of us could tell you that we are distinctly different. Our difference is a great source of pride, from our food to the music, it was insulting that I was reduced to stereotype of the one place in Carribbean people had heard of. As an adult, I would have the perfect retort, but as a shy little girl these encounters forced me to quickly submerge my accent. I searched for reflections of me everywhere. As a librarians daughter, I had access to so much knowledge and media and I still couldn't find anything. There was no place where there were a diversity of Black Toronto stories and perspectives, not for me or for all the other people who didn't know that my home existed. 

That is why for me, the work of the Black Experience Project is so compelling. I think about how significant it would have been for me as a young girl to know that there was a substantial Caribbean and specifically Trinidadian population in Toronto as well as all the other Black people coming from every corner of the world. I am reminded of the words of Junot Diaz.

"You guys know about vampires?" Diaz asked.  "You know, vampires have no reflections in a mirror? There's this idea that monsters don't have reflections in a mirror.  And what I've always thought isn't that monsters don't have reflections in a mirror. It's that if you want to make a human being into a monster, deny them, at the cultural level, any reflection of themselves. And growing up, I felt like a monster in some ways. I didn't see myself reflected at all. I was like, "Yo, is something wrong with me? That the whole society seems to think that people like me don't exist? And part of what inspired me, was this deep desire that before I died, I would make a couple of mirrors. That I would make some mirrors so that kids like me might seem themselves reflected back and might not feel so monstrous for it."

 

The Black Experience Project is a groundbreaking research study of the "lived experience" of individuals across the Greater Toronto Area who self-identify as Black or of African heritage.

The study focuses on the contributions, successes, experiences and challenges of the people from this diverse set of communities. The research will provide valuable direction in identifying policies and other initiatives that will contribute to the health and vibrancy of the Black community, and by doing so, the health and vibrancy of the entire GTA community. 

The study will consist of in-depth one-on-one confidential interviews with a representative sample of individuals across the GTA. The survey is now underway and will continue through May 2015. They are seeking input from all people and are reaching out to the LGBTQ* community to give their perspectives in the Greater Toronto Area.

 

Self-Determination For Our Bodies

 

Was just cleaning out my hightail account (online file sending site) and I found these pictures taken years ago by brilliant photographer @nabilshash and all these memories come rushing back. At the time I couldn't share these, not even the ones where you couldn't see my face. I was at the beginning of my career and had to work so hard as a ‪#‎BlackWoman‬ to be taken seriously as a ‪#‎careerartist‬, in ‪#‎business‬ and in my ‪#‎humanrights‬ work. Femininity is always so policed, and that is why I work so hard with whatever visibility I have to fight for the right for women and genderqueer folks to wear what they want in public and private space. We all deserve the autonomy to contribute to our communities in looking the way we want to, in the ways we see ourselves. This means women wearing the hijab, and strippers wearing nothing at all. It means glitter, and prosthesis or heels or hairy legs. What someone is wearing is not an excuse to disrespect them or take away their rights. ‪#‎Tattoos‬‪#‎piercings‬‪#‎surgery‬ and all the ‪#‎bodyarts‬ are all choices that individuals are making that hurt no one but themselves. What matters is the content of our character. If you don't like it, then do not wear it or do it. Making assumptions about my capacity despite a genius level IQ and a wicked work ethic because I like short skirts and push up bras. ‪#‎phuckthat‬ ‪#‎younggiftedandblack‬ And whatever your genius and gift is to bring to the world, let us work towards a world where the capacity of women in saris or in next to nothing will not be doubted. As for whatever you all wanna do with your bodies; if you like it, then I love it. ‪#‎self‬ determination

Centering The Margins

"I often hear black girls complain that their hair is difficult to control, and its precisely because we are not meant to control it.
I have always found that jeans hurt my body with waistlines digging into my stomach as I try to exhale.
T shirts that cut into my arms, bras that dig into my flesh leaving scars that remain today.
We are not the architects of this system, of course these things wont fit us when they come from people who refuse to acknowledge that we exist. We know this because we see their runways, their print ads, their magazines. We are not wrong.
Beige is not the definition of 'nude', my hair does not need to be restrained, it needs to be liberated. My hair isnt too thick, I didn't go through puberty too early, my mama is not 'plus sized' - these statements all use an invented standard of whiteness and then define me in relation to that standard.
Fuck mainstream. Fuck counter culture and sub culture. We are our own mainstream. We are our own culture.
Fuck standards and constructions of normal. Nothing ever grew by being measured. We grow by being nurtured and affirmed for who we are as we are.
Standards are always relative."


Chronic Illness

I have been chronically ill for my whole life. The pressures of having to excel as a queer Black femme and over a decade in abusive household, being houseless and with a string of abusive partners forced me to manage my illness as quietly as I could, which compounded it. Right now, I am about 3 months into a diagnosis of Ulcerative Colitis. There isn't a cure and medical doctors have offered me either endless medication or removal of my colon as options for treatment, neither of which personally work for me. 

Western medicine operates in this isolationist way, where a cure for them is just to remove the part of your body that is dis-eased, as opposed to treating things in their context, both historical and environmental. Their solutions? To medicate with drugs whose side effects range from depression to tuberculosis or to remove my colon entirely. And although I respect anyone's decision to address their illness in whatever way makes the most sense to them, these don't work for me and to have doctors literally yell at me when I refuse these options is so profoundly wrong. Especially considering that the studies that are constantly being cited are funded by the same companies who are producing the drugs and stand to profit the most from their use. When the health of any community is tied directly to profit, it is impossible for it to be accessible and equitable whether our healthcare is 'free' or not. Especially as an immigrant of colour, ‘this modern western’ medical industrial complex is touted as being the best in the world, despite the fact that our bodies and our experiences are rarely if ever included in their studies and when they are it is based on experimentation and abuse, Henrietta Lacks and ‘modern gynecology’ as two examples of violent, abuse targeted at Black women that benefited ‘Western science’.

I am still needing to work to support myself which is hard as stress is a primary trigger cause I am still a cash-poor in debt artist & organizer. My partner is amazing at taking care of me as I explore natural options. Trying to find a way to manage the whole 'you don't look sick' ableist bullshit and still exist in capitalism is also so hard. 

With chronic illness, you often operate on a 'hope for the best, but plan for the worst mentality'. You give all that you can to your friends, family and community and then sometimes you can't. You plan for parties and events that you may never be able to show up to. You focus your energy on the things that you hope are the most generous to your community and to your own spirit but sometimes it just isn't enough (I try to still share lots of knowledge on fb, but can rarely reply to messages and I am really sorry for that)

It's hard to talk about illness especially as a Black girl. People, including and most often doctors either dismiss it entirely as exaggeration or they assume that you can no longer do anything or contribute in anyway and then stop asking you to participate in community. When people rage about how writing on the internet isn't activism and people need to actually 'do something', it is such an incredibly abelist framing that excludes sick and disabled folks who are necessarily a part of our community and continue to try our damndest to keep up with the capitalist ethos, namely that you are only as valuable as what you produce'. 

So I share this in solidarity with all my other sick folks who so choose to identify. I share this with those who are hurting and hustling and those who can not even imagine what it would be like to leave the bed. With all the folks who are in debt up to the hundreds of thousands just trying to stay well. In a free world, being alive would not be tied to making money. All life would be a right as there is more than enough to go around to sustain us all and at no one's expense. I am gonna keep fighting and healing in all the ways I can, and continue to try to love and be accountable and grow and transform. The words of my sister Imani rings so loud and true in my mind, ‘Get it how you live’. So often when we have been made sick by our histories and environments, we have to go away for a while and get better and then subject ourselves to the same contexts that made us sick in the first place. If capitalism creates the equation that time is money and healing needs time, it makes wellness a privilege of the elite. For those most marginalized by systemic oppression, we are in desperate need of time, resources and care in such a way that these things don’t come at a cost to the very things that we are trying to protect.

This isn’t a plea for pity or sympathy, but a call to examine a system that leaves us with so few choices no matter how hard we try. I want so much more and so much better for us all.

 

Prison's Don't Make Us Safer

Just to keep it 100, I don't believe that prison is a solution to disappearing social problems. I think that people can and do have transformative experiences in prison but I believe that it is in spite of as opposed to because of it.

Slave patrols and Night Watches, which later became modern police departments, were both designed to protect the 'property' of slaveowners. Enslaved African people were that property. "Slave patrols helped to maintain the economic order and to assist the wealthy landowners in recovering and punishing (enslaved African people) who essentially were considered property." That is still largely what they do.http://www.plsonline.eku.edu/insidelook/brief-history-slavery-and-origins-american-policing. I think that as Black people it is important that we set up community based supports so when we need help, we have places to call with people who aren't going to murder us. Neighborhood watches, healing justice spaces. With folks that I know may be vulnerable for violence, I have been part of a phone tree of people they can call in an emergency. Structures like this are important for finding ways to navigate violence circumventing increasing levels of violence from service providers. These structures have been flexible and changing and have always been more reliable than anything external.

I don't think that counseling programs that are set up by these racist white institutions run by people who hate Black men and Black people are ever going to work to 'rehabilitate' our communities. They might provide a service, but they don't provide care. When I ask for more in these situations of domestic violence I am thinking of community based healing work, transformative justice, things that would involve our peers, that involve Black women, other Black people - I am interested in the ways that we change families, and communities and shift paradigms. As Black people we transform the world all the time! From Hip Hop to Jazz, we impact culture globally - what makes us think that we couldn't heal the world if we believed in our capacity to? 

I am so interested in movements around transformative justice and prison abolition. Generation 5 has some really amazing approacheshttp://www.generationfive.org/ or justice circles as held by Indigenous communities across North America http://www.restorativejustice.org/press-room/05rjprocesses.

The things that are currently in place clearly don't work and prison definitely doesn't. If prison worked, the United States would be the safest country in the world. With only 5% of the worlds population with 25% of the worlds prison population. I am suggesting that things should be radically different. Why keep doing things that fundamentally don't work and make our communities less safe? Maybe we should have folks go live in a monastery, be taught meditation by Tibetan monks who have been known to have phenomenal control of their minds - but prison does not produce men who respect Black women more than when they went in. No one will ever convince me that is an appropriate solution to ending violence or any social problem at all.

Punishment Doesn't 'Solve' Anything: Ray Rice & The NFL

I get that Rice is out of the NFL, but that doesn't solve anything, it is only punitive and I am not sure what that accomplishes. 
That doesn't mean that now he would never do it again or does it mean that he has now become a hero for women's rights and would now step in when Black women are being violated. That would be a victory for me, rehabilitation and transformation that is tangibly demonstrated over time is an ideal I would at least like to try for.

This doesn't get other men to start thinking about the ways that this is happening in their life, it doesn't ask them to check in with their boys to see if that might be an issue elsewhere. Most responses I have see make it clear that moving forward Janay will face an enormous amount of judgement and resentment and hatred from men and other people who will blame her for 'ruining' his career because victim blaming is what people are already doing. 

I need us to start employing all the strategies that Black women have laid out to prevent violence against Black women. 

I need preachers and teachers to acknowledge racism and trauma and stress and the way that Black women are most likely to be beaten and abused by the people who are closest to us, whom have sworn to love and support us. When our partners are beaten by the world, they all too often come home and take that out on our bodies. 

We need to acknowledge the double standard that allows Iggy & JLo to be 'sexy' and Nicki 'nasty'. We need to talk about a system that sets men and women up as natural enemies and opposites, when in fact we are connected to each other and many other genders too. This culture produces so much toxicity and we don't have accept that violence has to just be a part of it.

I want us to try to fix it. Try to heal from it. Try to have justice around it. Prioritize Janay's needs. I want us to talk about the fact that the number one cause of death for Black women between the ages of 18-34 is domestic violence. I am hard pressed to think of one Black woman I know who hasn't been physically or sexually assaulted MULTIPLE TIMES. I want us all to accept that this is un acceptable and it can't continue any longer#notonemore. No more punishments, no more apologies much after the fact, no more feigned concern. For all the things that are the number one killers of white women, there are foundations, there are even days of commemoration (Dec.6th as an example). I genuinely just need people, EVERYONE to care more.

On Janay Palmer, Ray Rice & The Spectacle Of Violence Against Black Women

TW* Domestic Violence

I was just watching the video of Janay Palmer & Ray Rice and his violent assault of her and the other men on the scene who did nothing. The comments have been abhorrent, claiming 'self-defense'. (He is a NFL Player, the modern day equivalent of a gladiator, there is no way to rationalize KNOCKING HER UNCONSCIOUS.) 


As a Black woman, when I leave the house everyday, it's not a matter of whether someone will say or do something to emotionally or physically degrade me, it is literally a question of the number of times someone will touch my body without my permission, will make sexual remarks about my body under their control, not to mention the countless fucking ways that other women engage in pre-emptive victim blaming, as though a push up bra is more powerful than a grown ass man with a hatred for women. 

I have so many memories and experiences of violent assault and near rape. I have been knocked out by men and it wasn't because they had a 'hand problem' or an 'aggression problem' it is because they literally despise black women and they wanted to kill me.

It should not be so easy to just change the subject. It should be staggering and tragic. Everytime it happens, each woman, Black Trans* Women and non- Trans* women alike. 

But we don't warrant boycotts, and moments of silence and walkouts. We are problems, threats to men's promising futures and existing careers, we are 'wild and crazy', spectacles of shame and failed attempts at self love, affronts to Black masculinity, welfare queens, hoes. It is literally opposite world when Miss Jill Scott is shamed for pictures being shared against her will, while the men who broke multiple laws in order to violate her and other women are ignored at best and applauded at worst. Did you know that youtube was started because of the #Super Bowl where Janet Jackson was blamed for a less famous white guy becoming more famous by exposing her breast against HER will?? The creators wanted an easy way to access the video and thus youtube was born. Literally the spectacle of Black womanhood is used to make billions, while we only receive the shame.


We should matter more to everyone. And part of the daily act of solidarity, we have an ability in each moment to care more. To open our hearts more to the suffering of others. We can't change the whole world, but you are the filter by which you experience this whole world. You can change you. You have the power to care more, to feel a little bit more rage about it, to be a little more sensitive, to stop ignoring the suffering of others . It is possible to do that right phucking now, at your desk, on your lunch, to feel more for each other! It doesn't mean that there will be less space for you and your needs and your struggles when you grow your capacity for empathy & solidarity. 

Caring about each other more in both thought and action, nurturing a loving response to suffering of others amplifies our collective capacity for greatness. 
#blackwomenmatter #blacklives #allofusornoneofus

Learning To Love

I'm really obsessed with learning.
I love everything about it.
It makes me so hot, literally. 
It fills me with an enormous heat and passion that for me is so akin to sexual energy. And I really love sharing things I have learned with other people. I love that information can literally transform our lives. It can inspire us to be kinder to ourselves, to each other, it can heal the sick, it can liberate you, transform your community, it can profoundly shift everything we think we know about the world. 

I really love learning collectively, and I appreciate when you comment and share the things that you learn and feel, the ways that it has impacted your lives and your relationships. And because of all the work that I do and all the ways I share (besides Facebook, I have 13 different blogs that I admin or co admin and share information on weekly) I can't always reply, but I read every single thing and I wanted to thank you all for engaging in that collective process.

Tiq Milan always says to me #teamworkmakesthedreamwork and for me that illustrates so aptly the reasons why I am equally as obsessed with intersectionality, equity & inclusion. We need each other. And I don't feel ashamed of that anymore. I need and I benefit all the time from the work of other people. I learn more and more about that every day. From the way that I as a hearing person benefits from the creation of a culture that is so auditory, it actively and violently excludes my Deaf* community to the way that I as a Black Queer woman on a daily basis am subject to violent language and sometimes unwanted touch on a daily basis. I hold all these things in my body at the same time and even more. We all do. Each life form on this planet is intricately connected to us all and we are each infinitely complex.
It's fascinating and beautiful and thrilling. I want to spend the rest of my life understanding relationships and sharing them with people in the hopes of creating a world that is more just and where power and resources are shared with equity. 

I learn that there are Black people being murdered all across the country and I learn that Indigenous People worldwide are also facing a continual genocide. I learn about the Tamil People, the Tibetans, the Samoans, the Muxe, the Hijra. I learn that so much of European Art is appropriated from beautifully complex African Art. I learn that Mathematics came from the Middle East. And I keep finding more and more. I learn that we are so much more than we have told. All people who are marginalized, we are constantly taught that we are not valuable. We quiet ourselves, just as we were quieted or ignored as children or at work earlier in the day. Instead of seeking love, we seek to disempower others, shame other so that hopefully we ease this emptiness that so many of us are feeling.

I say this often, whether you believe that we were made by a creator or from the bellies of stars, either way that means that we are a piece of heaven. We are all divine.

We cannot vilify the thief and then elevate those who steal entire continents and celebrate "Columbus day'. We cannot imprison the drug dealer when BP is allowed to remain free and functioning after poisoning the environment with massive oil spills. We cannot condemn the hoodie when more people have been murdered by men in suits and uniforms. We cannot shame Black women for sharing their bodies when their are museums and art galleries full of white women all being regarded as immensely valuable. One of the most powerful things we all need to learn is to trust ourselves, trust our struggle and trust each other.

We need to trust the stories of immigrants, refugees, the people on food stamps, - we need to trust the lingering stories of young unarmed Black boys murdered for daring to exist. We need to trust these stories and the things that they teach us OVER the stories that are being fed to us by corporately funded media.

We are all valuable. We have to open ourselves to the lived experiences of the people around us. We have to learn of each other from each other. We have to stop believing the lies that we are fed about ourselves and our communities.

And that is why I will continue to learn everything I can and then I share it all. The more I learn, the more I understand and the more that it complicates my understanding of the world, and I know that in sharing it, it generates abundance. The value of it all increases in a multitude of different ways in which I can't entirely know or understand and every single piece is important. Every single part of it is powerful, humbling and miraculous. When I get into a conversation about intergenerational healing with the young woman in the Bronx doing my nails and we end up in tears just as she finishes and when I get the honor of being invited to universities to celebrate their Lavender Graduation.

Working collectively, respecting different levels of participation, knowledge and experience, sharing in visions of justice and of love, celebrating diversity and valuing the lived experiences of people experiencing violence. These are all things that happen here and are happening in other pockets all around the world. 

I'm not suggesting this is THE revolution, but it does feel radical. Even when we are witnessing and experiencing so much violence, we still find ways in the midst of it all to make a lot of miracles happen. I just wanted to remind us all of that while we fight, or while we are sad or tired or burnt out - its all important, the little and the big in each and every moment that we persist creating a world that we have never known in our lifetimes. We are guided by multiple different kinds of faiths and purposes that are all divine just as we are.

On #Selfies, Shame, Self & #Community Love

This is a quick vlog I recorded on my way to Afropunk describing my experiences as a young immigrant Black girl in Canada of shame and how #selfies and representation of unrepresented folks are an important act of self-love & community love. 

As always transcript & closed captioning by writer. artist. revolutionary  Mercy Medusa Minah

 

 

Replacing Shame with Love & Respect

 

[Transcript of video shot by Kim Katrin Milan on replacing shame with love and respect]

 

Kim: I wanted to record this video really quick because I was about to take another selfie and I had that moment of guilt...that creeps up on me sometimes when I wanna take a picture of myself. For posterity, for joy, because I feel proud about the way that I look, um, because I feel excited about the way that I look, because I feel excited about the day...for all sorts of different reasons we wanna record ourselves. There's so many different reasons why artists throughout history have chosen to record people. And you know if we look around in museums all over the world, we'll see the people who normally get represented. And they're normally not womyn of color, they're normally not trans womyn, they're normally not men of color...they're normally the same kinds of people that get to be commemorated uh, in museums, in art galleries, um, in film, on most magazines, in most books, you know? So I think that it is a really powerful act of resistance for people of color and people who are visibly not part of what is included in most of what...the messaging we see in the world, um, when we choose to represent ourselves. I think it's a good thing and I think its an important thing.

 

Um, but I wanted to describe sort of where my guilt comes from. Coz whenever I find an emotion like guilt I try to seek where the source of it is, I try to understand where it came from. So hopefully it won't have the same kind of power over me. Or that when it does come up, at least now I know how to talk myself down from it. 

 

So I was thinking about why I feel guilty about taking pictures of myself. And when I was younger, you know, my mother's boyfriend was a really abusive person and I lived with him for most of my childhood years and up into sort of the middle of my teens. And he was a really religious man and really Christian man. And he really believed that women were the source of so much sin and shame and temptation. And he would often call my mother a whore. He felt that because she was friendly with people around her that that meant that she was promiscuous and that I should always be weary of becoming a whore like my mother. And it was a threat that he would often levy at me and I...you know I was a very awkward young girl, but then when I started to develop which was very young - which is often very young for women of color- which was eight, you know, I had boobs. You know, he really shamed me every time I looked in the mirror. He would really um, physically chastise me or verbally chastise me. You know, and he would blame the kind of abuse that I was experiencing, on...me. On the fact that I was developing the way that I was, on the fact that my body looked the way that it did, you know and...

 

I think that everytime I looked in the mirror...I, I remembered the feeling, the violence and all of the things that would come with that and so eventually I stopped looking in mirrors. So when I look back over my high school years and I look back at you know, all of the kind of year books and all the different ways that people were commemorating themselves...there aren't really pictures of me. And I worked really hard for that not to happen, you know. I didn't go in for school pictures, I didn't go to prom, I didn't go to any of those visual sort of public things because I felt really ashamed of who I was. You know at 8 years old, in grade 3, I'm having like boys like snap my bra-straps you know? I'm having grown men, tell me as a child...I remember when I was thirteen years old, I was on the plane and this 31 year old man said to me that he wanted me to be his bride and that I should just come with him and get off the plane with him in Barbados and just go away with him.

 

You know like, grown adult men, when I would tell them how old I was completely disregarded that and continued to like advance upon me in ways that were really really really sexual and really really really violent. And I felt so ashamed of myself, for just existing in the body that I had, in the way that I was and I tried my hardest to hide it. And I think that we have a choice um, in the ways that we raise our children, to not tell them that their bodies are the problem. People might be doing all sorts of violent things and they might be rationalizing that someone's body is the problem. But everyone makes a choice. When you make a choice to inflict violence, that belongs to you, that doesn't belong to anybody else. And I really feel like for me, very very very much that taking pictures, choosing to be seen, choosing to be visible for me is an important part of my process.

 

I think that so much of what we do is we seek out the validation we didn't have as children, we didn't have as young people, we didn't have for most of our lives, you know? For most of my life I was in places where all of the things that I was were not valuable. And they were seen as a constant liability and I was always trying to hide myself away. And I think that sexism does that, transphobia does that. It tells you that simply because of the person you are you're not valuable and you should not be seen. And that's bullshit. That's wrong, coz we all deserve to be visible, we all deserve to be seen in the ways that we wanna be. Not everyone wants to be seen in the exact same way and no one should be forced to be. But we all deserve to be in control of our image. We all deserve to get likes, we all deserve to have people tell us that we're valuable and important for the ways we that we look if that is how we choose to seek out our validation. And we should try to fill that need. We should try to seek out validation for the parts of us that are in need of love and care and respect and kindness, like we deserve those things. And we deserve to find a community of people that does that. And for me, that is the power of social media. That I couldn't do this before. I couldn't find ways to reflect myself and have other people in the world think and validate me and tell me that I might be important just for existing in the way that I do.

 

And that I could do the same for other people who are all so different from me, who all have very different experiences and look in profoundly different ways and I can learn how to love and respect more and more people. And that is my goal, to learn how to love and respect more and more people, to get better at doing that for other people so that we can be better to each other. I can't imagine having any other purpose in the world than wanting to make each other feel better about the people that we are. Wanting to make all life be able to flourish in ways that are harmonious and I think that even if we can't do it in this lifetime, it's still worth trying.

 

-video ends-

Indigenous Knowledge is Valuable & Accurate

This article highlights some very important ways that our knowledge systems are devalued.
"It’s not the first time his genomic research has synchronized neatly with indigenous oral traditions."
This is this the thing, the observations that have been made by Indigenous Peoples are RESEARCH. They are based upon empirical observations and passed down generationally. How come when white scientists thousands of years later, with little relationship and little context do it it is considered 'research', which is somehow more valuable than direct contact and the generational dissemination by highly credible people consistently over thousands of years??? This is so racist the way that Indigenous people's knowledge and capacity to be truthful and accurate is consistently challenged by a system that is actually guilty of rewriting history in order to justify their unfair gains.
The knowledge, these observations:
"They inhabited the Arctic before the Inuit came, and they were a different stock of people — taller and stronger, with the muscularity of polar bears, the stories say. A Tuniit man could lift a 1,000 pound seal on his back, or drag a whole walrus."
THIS IS ALL KNOWLEDGE. Subjectivity is more valuable than feigned 'objectivity'. Lived experience does constitute a valuable and significant knowledge system that interact with many other experiences and perspectives. White science is no more 'evolved' that any of Indigenous Peoples, Black People or People Of Colour's systems of knowledge. They all have strengths, inconsistencies and inequitable biases. Our sciences' are still being used to run the world, they are just being rebranded as things like "Eco-Friendly, Rock & Roll, Algebra or Yoga'. Don't forget who we are. You might not know everything, but you can know quite a bit about yourself and your place in this world. And each person and each cultures perspective and experience is inherently VALUABLE.
"In February, when Willerslev and colleagues announced they had sequenced the genome of a 12,500-year-old skeleton found in Montana, the results showed that nearly all South and North American indigenous populations were related to this ancient American. Shane Doyle, a member of the Crow tribe of Montana, said at the time: “This discovery basically confirms what tribes have never really doubted — that we’ve been here since time immemorial, and that all the artifacts and objects in the ground are remnants of our direct ancestors.” The sequenced genome of an Aboriginal from Australia also revealed findings in line with the local communities’ oral histories, Willerslev says."

Our Collective Worth & Divinity

I'm really obsessed with learning.
I love everything about it.
It makes me so hot, literally. 
It fills me with an enormous heat and passion that for me is so akin to sexual energy. And I really love sharing things I have learned with other people. I love that information can literally transform our lives. It can inspire us to be kinder to ourselves, to each other, it can heal the sick, it can liberate you, transform your community, it can profoundly shift everything we think we know about the world.

I really love learning collectively, and I appreciate when you comment and share the things that you learn and feel, the ways that it has impacted your lives and your relationships. And because of all the work that I do and all the ways I share (besides Facebook, I have 13 different blogs that I admin or co admin and share information on weekly) I can't always reply, but I read every single thing and I wanted to thank you all for engaging in that collective process.

Tiq Milan always says to me ‪#‎teamworkmakesthedreamwork‬ and for me that illustrates so aptly the reasons why I am equally as obsessed with intersectionality, equity & inclusion. We need each other. And I don't feel ashamed of that anymore. I need and I benefit all the time from the work of other people. I learn more and more about that every day. From the way that I as a hearing person benefits from the creation of a culture that is so auditory, it actively and violently excludes my Deaf* community to the way that I as a Black Queer woman on a daily basis am subject to violent language and sometimes unwanted touch on a daily basis. I hold all these things in my body at the same time and even more. We all do. Each life form on this planet is intricately connected to us all and we are each infinitely complex.
It's fascinating and beautiful and thrilling. I want to spend the rest of my life understanding relationships and sharing them with people in the hopes of creating a world that is more just and where power and resources are shared with equity.

I learn that there are Black people being murdered all across the country and I learn that Indigenous People worldwide are also facing a continual genocide. I learn about the Tamil People, the Tibetans, the Samoans, the Muxe, the Hijra. I learn that so much of European Art is appropriated from beautifully complex African Art. I learn that Mathematics came from the Middle East. And I keep finding more and more. I learn that we are so much more than we have told. All people who are marginalized, we are constantly taught that we are not valuable. We quiet ourselves, just as we were quieted or ignored as children or at work earlier in the day. Instead of seeking love, we seek to disempower others, shame other so that hopefully we ease this emptiness that so many of us are feeling.

I say this often, whether you believe that we were made by a creator or from the bellies of stars, either way that means that we are a piece of heaven. We are all divine.

We cannot vilify the thief and then elevate those who steal entire continents and celebrate "Columbus day'. We cannot imprison the drug dealer when BP is allowed to remain free and functioning after poisoning the environment with massive oil spills. We cannot condemn the hoodie when more people have been murdered by men in suits and uniforms. We cannot shame Black women for sharing their bodies when their are museums and art galleries full of white women all being regarded as immensely valuable. One of the most powerful things we all need to learn is to trust ourselves, trust our struggle and trust each other.

We need to trust the stories of immigrants, refugees, the people on food stamps, - we need to trust the lingering stories of young unarmed Black boys murdered for daring to exist. We need to trust these stories and the things that they teach us OVER the stories that are being fed to us by corporately funded media.

We are all valuable. We have to open ourselves to the lived experiences of the people around us. We have to learn of each other from each other. We have to stop believing the lies that we are fed about ourselves and our communities.

And that is why I will continue to learn everything I can and then I share it all. The more I learn, the more I understand and the more that it complicates my understanding of the world, and I know that in sharing it, it generates abundance. The value of it all increases in a multitude of different ways in which I can't entirely know or understand and every single piece is important. Every single part of it is powerful, humbling and miraculous. When I get into a conversation about intergenerational healing with the young woman in the Bronx doing my nails and we end up in tears just as she finishes and when I get the honor of being invited to universities to celebrate their Lavender Graduation.

Working collectively, respecting different levels of participation, knowledge and experience, sharing in visions of justice and of love, celebrating diversity and valuing the lived experiences of people experiencing violence. These are all things that happen here and are happening in other pockets all around the world.

I'm not suggesting this is THE revolution, but it does feel radical. Even when we are witnessing and experiencing so much violence, we still find ways in the midst of it all to make a lot of miracles happen. I just wanted to remind us all of that while we fight, or while we are sad or tired or burnt out - its all important, the little and the big in each and every moment that we persist creating a world that we have never known in our lifetimes. We are guided by multiple different kinds of faiths and purposes that are all divine just as we are.

Taking Off Your Cool

 

Taking off your Cool | Learning & Loving

 

[Transcript of video composed by Kim Katrin Milan and shot by Gein Wong, discussing the ways learning and loving can enact revolution]

 

Kim: "You know, any piece of information could be the catalyst, you know...it's the thing that makes the person the maddest and starts this like massive revolution. Like the butterfly effect..."

 

Voice in background: "Uh-huh."

 

Kim: "...the idea that one small happening can successively affect massive kinds of change. What if something that I read just really...or something that someone read that I shared...made people feel like things could be different? You know, I really believe in all of these like post-apocalyptic uh sci-fi novels that really speak to the power of the human spirit to just do these um, enormous things. Like, change the scope of the entire world because, people are not being treated fairly."

 

Voice in the background: "Mhmm."

 

Kim: "And I think that the way in which we affect positive change is by making sure that as many people as possible have as much information as possible. [Pauses] *sighs* I just think learning is everything. I think it's like...that's why I really like Lucy, because it's the idea that you are able to access 100% of your brain just for the purpose of giving this gift to the rest of the world. Like all of this knowledge that possibly, if everyone just gets access to, that it could make everything okay. And maybe even more than okay, but like awesome. Like what if things could be awesome? What if it could be like, we could create the road so that people don't crash? What we could make sure that everything was not only sustainable but also like, nurturing? What if people all felt really good about themselves ALL the Time?! What if people felt like they were really awesome? What if people could enter into relationships that weren't shameful or scary? What if people could ask for the kind of sex that they want?

 

What if we could eliminate things like rape? You know? There are cultures in the world where rape does not exist. It doesn't have to be this 'truth' of our society that raping and poverty and violence are realities that we have to live out. This idea that we're naturally brutish by nature, I don't think it's true and I feel like why not put other theories to the test? As the human race, you know, why not explore other ideas about our humanity together? Or even apart. Like, why not create space for other people to explore their own personal versions of themselves, you know? And I think that knowledge is the way to do that.

 

I remember being a little girl, and just being obsessed with reading; obsessed with every single world I could learn about. Obsessed with every single place that people went in their imagination. I was so in awe of the fact that people could imagine whole worlds and characters and peoples and tell stories that millions of people around the world could read! That's just so...powerful. Right? Like, how can I not believe that one person can change everything. Because it's just one person writing this book, that then gets shared all around the world. But, for me it's not about the one, it's about the one to many. You know, like, we each are filters for millions of people, and millions of life forms. You know, like my body is home to millions of life forms.

 

Like, we have to recognize that any version of this universe that we imagine has to be one that's grounded in interdependence. Like this really deep knowing that we need each other and taking care of each other. Like, taking care of each other feels awesome. Like taking care of you in my life, Gein, feels awesome. It feels super nice the way that you take care of me too. Like, that feels super great. I like, I want people to wanna show off that they like each other. I want that to be cool, because I feel like it's not cool to say that you just think someone's awesome and smart and great, and that you're just really happy that they wanna be your friend.

 

And maybe that's a weird thing to like say as an adult, because it's hard to make friends as an adult...or different to make friends as an adult? But like, you know, as someone who like didn't really have a lot of friends as a kid, like, I think it's so...I think friendship is super special. And I think connecting with people is super special. And I don't understand why we don't wanna be more obsessed with information and structures of ways of making other people feel special and valued. Cuz it feels awesome and I don't know why we don't wanna do that to each other. And like, I hate how cool it is to be mean. I hate how cool it is, to like, be hurtful, I hate how cool it is to act like we don't care about each other or we don't care when we get hurt. You know everyone who's ever hurt my feelings, still hurts my feelings. Even when I'm like "I don't care, and "you're mean", "it doesn't matter"...like, it all hurts. Cuz, I feel like we're all soft on the inside."

 

- video ends -

Dear Young Black Men

Dear young Black men. Sag your pants if you want to. Wear super tight skinny jeans if you want to. Wear hoodies if you want to. Wear your long locks, your dashiki, cover yourself in tattoos - yes even on your face. Wear all white. It is not true that if we dress the way that whiteness determine is the most 'professional' that you will be granted more freedom, more jobs, better salaries or will it keep you out of prison. The prison is full of generations of Black men who never sagged their pants at all. Black men have never made more than .74 for every dollar a white man makes extending as far back to 1970, when it was .69 and I imagine these men were not sagging their pants either.

 
When white people went all the way to the African continent to get out of doing work (only to turn around and call us lazy after African enslaved people have literally done all the work) and they saw us as kings, queens, farmers, artists, weavers and we were also not sagging our pants, they still began a genocide whose effects persist even today. If that was all it took, just to dress like they say, or speak like they say and only when spoken to, then don't you think our ancestors would have tried that? And in fact many of them did, tried very hard to meet all the standards that were established, assimilated into their schools, adopted their religion, speaking their language and we still are not free. Black men get shot and murdered in suits, and sweaters, black boys in tshirts and hoodies. The way that they dress has NOTHING to do with the war that has been declared on their bodies. I applaud every Black man trying to stay alive, saying fuck you to ‪#‎respectabilitypolitics‬ with your braidup tight and the ones who hold their own in a suit and those wearing long robes. I will always fight for your right to wear whatever you please, and to have the self-determination to make your own choices about your bodies.

 


Reconciling Hearts & Minds: The Science Of Social Justice

 

Here is a video I conceived, directed by Gein Wong, transcribed by mercy medusa mahogany immanuel thokozane minah, inspired by Zainab Amadahy's book Wielding The Force: The Science Of Social Justice, talking about emotions, Maya's wisdom, movement building and electro-magnetic fields.

This one is for all the folks who have been told that their feelings put them at a disadvantage.

“I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

― Maya Angelou 

 

 

 

 

[Transcript of video conceived by Kim Katrin Milan, directed by Gein Wong and discussing vital lessons from Zainab Amadahy's Wielding The Force: The Science of Social Justice]
Voice in background: Who would be like, your first person you'd want in the audience to be there?
Kim: For me it's not like a specific person, it's like, anyone who has been told that their emotions are not important or real. 
Voice in background: Mhmm, mhmm.
Kim: You know? One of the other things she talked about was how, every time we make a decision we check in with our emotional centers. Like, everyone does that. This isn't something that like, just "illogical" people do separately, then all the logical people just totally destroy that. Like, everybody does that, you know? And I've just, for everyone who has just felt um, like their emotions put them at a disadvantage or that they have to stop crying...Okay, now I know who I'm talking to. (Smiles) 
Kim: I wanted to talk about a book. I wanted to talk about a book that was really important to me, because it fortified my ability to do my work better. It made me believe in myself in a way that I, knew that I wanted to believe in myself but I couldn't quite figure out how to do that. And so I always like to share things that make us feel more possible, more confident in ourselves, in our capacity. Uh, less ashamed of the people that we are, of our frailness, of our beauty, of our wholeness. And I feel like this person's work really does that. In a really transformative way. So I wanted to talk about Zainab Amadahy. She wrote a book called The Science of Social Justice. And this book really talks about how Indigenous sciences and emerging sciences are connected to the ways in which we think and talk about social justice. But also the ways in which we think and talk about science and the brain and a whole myriad of topics. And I feel like, really importantly, it brings a much needed perspective in terms of intersectionality and connectivity, that is missing from a lot of analysis both of social justice and as well, of science. And so one of the things that she talked about, that for me was really transformative, was explaining that every time we make a decision, we check in with our emotional centers. That so often, I have been told, and I know that so many of us have been told, that emotions are separate from logic. And that if you're crying while you're talking about something serious, it means you must apologize for those tears and find a way to suck that all up so that you can access the logicical side of the person that you are. And what this did for me was it reconciled everything. It meant that the emotions were absolutely part and parcel of everything I was doing, and it wasn't an accident. This is actually just what me as a human being in the world does. And one the other things that she shared, that was really really transformative as well, was this idea that we each, each life form has its own electrico-magnetic field. And these fields are one...are something that can be measured individually, but they can also be measured in the ways that they impact other people. So my EM fields can show up in your hearts, in can show up in your brain, it can show up in the people's lives who I touch. I think of Maya Angelou and the ways that she has asked us to remember that "People will not remember what we did, but they will remember the way that we made them feel." And that even though she might not have realized that, but she's talking some hard science right there. And I think, that one of the things that is really important in terms of thinking about these implications is how this works on a collective basis. So Zainab was explaining that there are two times in most recent recorded history when the electro magnetic field of the entire planet changed. One was when 9/11 was announced. And the second was when Obama's election was announced. That these two incidents, that could not be more different, one that was so much despair and so much tragedy and another one that was so much hope and so much promise of something -a testament of the collective organizing of so many individuals, who believed in something that they'd never seen before. And for me, that is a testament to what emotions can do. A testament to what the power of media means; the ability to transport this image entirely around the world, with enough to change the way in which the entire planet electro-magnetic field was being emitted. That these things that we take for granted, the ability to turn on the internet and get access to information. The ways in which we interact with each other and the ways that our feelings respond to these interactions, that these things are changing our planet. They're changing life all around us. And for me it was a reminder to think more deeply about the sacredness of my actions. Of the ways in which I act in the world, and the ways in which I build my movements. That if we are not also thinking about things from perspectives around hope, and intuition and love then we are not complete. We cannot only be focusing on the tangible because those things are all intricately connected. 
Kim: So I think one of the integral things that Zainab is inviting us to do is one, to really diversify our perspective and our understanding of what science is. That there are Indigenous scientists, there are Middle Eastern scientists. There are so many different people who are practicing different kinds of intricate localized knowledge that can be described as science. And also a reminder that our emotions are a part of that science. That we can't separate the feeling part of us from the logic part of us. That those things have already reconciled themselves together and we don't even have to do the work to figure out how they work together. And so I invite you to take a look at her book, Zainab Amadahy Wielding The Force: The Science of Social Justice.
Kim: Was that okay?
Voice in background: Yeah. 

On Zainab Amadahy's book Wielding The Force: The Science Of Social Justice
On Reconciling Hearts & Minds 
[Transcript of video conceived by Kim Katrin Milan, directed by Gein Wong and discussing vital lessons from Zainab Amadahy's Wielding The Force: The Science of Social Justice]

Voice in background: Who would be like, your first person you'd want in the audience to be there?
Kim: For me it's not like a specific person, it's like, anyone who has been told that their emotions are not important or real. 
Voice in background: Mhmm, mhmm.
Kim: You know? One of the other things she talked about was how, every time we make a decision we check in with our emotional centers. Like, everyone does that. This isn't something that like, just "illogical" people do separately, then all the logical people just totally destroy that. Like, everybody does that, you know? And I've just, for everyone who has just felt um, like their emotions put them at a disadvantage or that they have to stop crying...Okay, now I know who I'm talking to. (Smiles) 
Kim: I wanted to talk about a book. I wanted to talk about a book that was really important to me, because it fortified my ability to do my work better. It made me believe in myself in a way that I, knew that I wanted to believe in myself but I couldn't quite figure out how to do that. And so I always like to share things that make us feel more possible, more confident in ourselves, in our capacity. Uh, less ashamed of the people that we are, of our frailness, of our beauty, of our wholeness. And I feel like this person's work really does that. In a really transformative way. So I wanted to talk about Zainab Amadahy. She wrote a book called The Science of Social Justice. And this book really talks about how Indigenous sciences and emerging sciences are connected to the ways in which we think and talk about social justice. But also the ways in which we think and talk about science and the brain and a whole myriad of topics. And I feel like, really importantly, it brings a much needed perspective in terms of intersectionality and connectivity, that is missing from a lot of analysis both of social justice and as well, of science. And so one of the things that she talked about, that for me was really transformative, was explaining that every time we make a decision, we check in with our emotional centers. That so often, I have been told, and I know that so many of us have been told, that emotions are separate from logic. And that if you're crying while you're talking about something serious, it means you must apologize for those tears and find a way to suck that all up so that you can access the logicical side of the person that you are. And what this did for me was it reconciled everything. It meant that the emotions were absolutely part and parcel of everything I was doing, and it wasn't an accident. This is actually just what me as a human being in the world does. And one the other things that she shared, that was really really transformative as well, was this idea that we each, each life form has its own electrico-magnetic field. And these fields are one...are something that can be measured individually, but they can also be measured in the ways that they impact other people. So my EM fields can show up in your hearts, in can show up in your brain, it can show up in the people's lives who I touch. I think of Maya Angelou and the ways that she has asked us to remember that "People will not remember what we did, but they will remember the way that we made them feel." And that even though she might not have realized that, but she's talking some hard science right there. And I think, that one of the things that is really important in terms of thinking about these implications is how this works on a collective basis. So Zainab was explaining that there are two times in most recent recorded history when the electro magnetic field of the entire planet changed. One was when 9/11 was announced. And the second was when Obama's election was announced. That these two incidents, that could not be more different, one that was so much despair and so much tragedy and another one that was so much hope and so much promise of something -a testament of the collective organizing of so many individuals, who believed in something that they'd never seen before. And for me, that is a testament to what emotions can do. A testament to what the power of media means; the ability to transport this image entirely around the world, with enough to change the way in which the entire planet electro-magnetic field was being emitted. That these things that we take for granted, the ability to turn on the internet and get access to information. The ways in which we interact with each other and the ways that our feelings respond to these interactions, that these things are changing our planet. They're changing life all around us. And for me it was a reminder to think more deeply about the sacredness of my actions. Of the ways in which I act in the world, and the ways in which I build my movements. That if we are not also thinking about things from perspectives around hope, and intuition and love then we are not complete. We cannot only be focusing on the tangible because those things are all intricately connected. 
Kim: So I think one of the integral things that Zainab is inviting us to do is one, to really diversify our perspective and our understanding of what science is. That there are Indigenous scientists, there are Middle Eastern scientists. There are so many different people who are practicing different kinds of intricate localized knowledge that can be described as science. And also a reminder that our emotions are a part of that science. That we can't separate the feeling part of us from the logic part of us. That those things have already reconciled themselves together and we don't even have to do the work to figure out how they work together. And so I invite you to take a look at her book, Zainab Amadahy Wielding The Force: The Science of Social Justice.
Kim: Was that okay?
Voice in background: Yeah. 

 

Acting Like A Child

Ageism is a real system of oppression. The way that people over the age of 65 are targeted more specifically for certain kinds of fraud and violence related to long term care facilities and services and also the way that young people are manipulated and abused by adults. There is no doubt that age constructs a system of power. In some places, 18 has been determined as the age that you can be tried as an adult, 21 is the age that you can drink - the arbitrary passing of 'a year' grants certain social, economic and political power and over time it runs out until you are left with none.
The people who economically constructed Western civilization decidedly didn't make adequate systems to care for the elderly and the adults who currently benefit the most, also economically continue to maintain a system where people become 'disposable' at a certain age. 
I have also noticed that the generation that has benefited the most materially from capitalism also participates in agesim, namely in the ways that young people are blamed for many of societal ills generally. Youth is associated with 'folly' or not being hard working, being selfish or vain. And I really want to challenge that assumption. The young people I know are hustlers, despite being denied the right to pursue music or art or things that feed their spirit in favour for getting 'real jobs', they instead seek to do both, and are tired and overworked as a result of it. We have inherited more debt than has ever been imagined in the history of the world - I know more young people (under and around 30) who are in the negative $30,000 - $100,000 dollars, can't imagine how to have house much less how to have or support your children while working several jobs, engaging in activism, participating in community building through events, organizing and/or sharing information on social media and being chronically ill. 
And don't even get me started on all of the critiques on our use of social media. Over the internet I have been able to connect with all the people that capitalism tries to keep isolated through lack of accessible services and education. I get to connect with people who my own privilege as a hearing, seeing, English-Speaking cisgender person self distances me from. I have shared information and actions of solidarity with people around the world, as a queer little Black girl, I found love for the first time on the Internet. I am not suggesting that the web isn't fucked up, it is all part of real life and is fraught with the same systems of oppression and abuses that we experience in our physical relationships with each other, and yes the medium is intrinsically related to how we experience it. But this nostalgia for a time where people all said 'Hi' to each other was also a time where my Brown elders were having their houses egged by white supremacists in Vancouver, BC. So maybe we can stop acting like it is always the young people that are the ones who are fucking it up.
We inherited this culture and in many cases we are doing exactly what we are told, when capitalism deprived us from having loving relationships with you (we missed you) where we could have spent time with you and instead we were raised by hours of television that told us exactly the kind of people that we should be and that are valued.
I personally really love and trust younger people as a principle (obviously we have to negotiate our relationships with folks as individuals). I hope you exceed everything that has come before you. I want to tell you all the truth I can about how wonderful we were to each other and how fucked up we were to each other. I hope you can improve on everything that we have done, because the world is really hurting and few benefit at the expense of everyone else. I hope at 9 you will be way smarter than I ever was. You don't have to listen to me because I am your elder, my relative age has nothing to do with my kindness, compassion or wisdom. And while I should be respected you should be too. Disrespect is not warranted because someone is your boss, or your parent or any person in 'authority'. A degree, a gun, 20 years, or a collection of DNA does not give anyone the right to be violent, abusive, manipulative and be wary of any adult who suggests that is true. I trust that you know more about your surroundings and challenges than I do, so I will work really hard to ask a lot of questions, not be judgemental and understand your context as opposed to offering you advice that may have only been relevant in my time and my specific context. I believe that you are intelligent and capable and creative and there are some things you know more about than I do and vice versa. I understand that we are both human and we will both inevitably hurt each other, but I will always work to be accountable, to apologize to you when I am wrong and I hurt you BECAUSE AS ADULTS WE SHOULD BE ABLE TO APOLOGIZE TO ANYONE INCLUDING PEOPLE WHO ARE YOUNGER THAN US and also because I want you to also be accountable to me. When I say that someone is 'acting like a child' I will use it in a positive way or not at all, meaning someone is acting genuinely curious, creative, kind and careful because this is in fact what I have experience the most from children who are in loving homes regardless of access to money.
There was a recent study that I recall where they asked young children (5 - 8) to find as many different uses for a spoon as possible, and they found over 200 on average and then they asked again at 20 and on average they could only find 2. Children are unrestrained by restrictive rules, their imaginations ideally are boundless. I recognize that you are the ones who are most likely to imagine a world for us where we can be entirely free and living in respect and reverence of life and I am grateful to work with you and in solidarity with you.

 

Femme Worship & Why I Be Lovin Nick Cannon

I love the way that Nick Cannon declares his love for Mariah Carey. I just finished watching the Kevin Hart series The Real Husbands Of Hollywood. A show that focuses on the satirical relationships between several hilarious and brilliant comedic couples including Tisha Campbell-Martin (from Martin). And throughout the show, the ongoing joke is about him being 'Miss Mariah', but he never rejects it. He in fact embraces it openly. The first episode he even wears an apron that reads Mr. Mimi while he is barbecuing, he sets his alarm to go home at midnight to see Mariah after hanging out with the boys, he just loves himself some her!

Regardless of the ways that insecure people criticize his 'masculinity', he opens identifies as Mr. Mariah Carey. Why would we be mad? Why would we shame this man over and over again for loving this woman so deeply that he reaffirms it in every public encounter. 

This is so rare. And although I know nothing about their personal relationship, so often the image represented in corporate media, is that men don't love their partners, they think that they are annoying and they just put up with them. I have seen this 'joke' played out in sitcom after sitcom. And when masculine people love women a lot, it is always framed as a flaw, or a weakness like Steve Urkel before he became Stephan. 

What is being taught, if masculine people are shamed in much media when they express open loving, declarative possibly even submissive feeling for women? What is being taught if the 'cool' ways and the acceptable ways are to be less attached and attentive?

All these things must be practiced with consent. Grand gestures without consent can be invasive and frightening. When we love each other with clear permission in the ways that we each individually desire and negotiate, that is a beautiful thing.


Musings On Healing

The medical industrial complex.

It is such a trip as I engage in this process of healing. It is a return to all the knowledge systems that are actually Indigenous to me as someone with South Asian, African and Indigineous heritages. And to watch the way that the White Able Bodied Capitalist Machine first decried all of our knowledge as 'voodoo' as 'pagan nonsense' as 'primitive' and now the most 'progressive of people rename and appropriate our sciences while simaltaneously othering and alienating us.

All the while, we are meant to practice this thing called western science, that from everything that we know has literally been founded on the destruction of the bodies of womyn and trans folks, Indigineous People and People Of Colour. From the founding of western science's modern gynecology with the forcible sterilization and removal of the uterus' of enslaved African Womyn to simply using a standard for treatment that is based on conceptions of what a 'normal body is'. Namely, euro-western, hearing, cisgender, heterosexual....

And we are shamed when we do engage our own practices. The yoga I practiced with my grandfather becomes 'new age' and the way we eat back home in Venezuala gets called 'macrobiotic'. And we stop being who we are, and they call us 'urban' as though we were grown from the concrete. 

And they buy all our homelands and they call it 'cottage country' or 'private beaches' and we can't go home and we can't even drink the water because it's flooded with all these chemicals that your science said would be good for us and our sciences said all along - that no they would not.

And you call it 'organic' when all that really means is that it is without your 'superior chemicals' and then we are judged for eating white bread, when it was your science that told us that we should do it in the first place.

Powerful reminders are all around us that we know more about our own individual bodies than anyone else and that is a valid type of science, based on our own lived and embodied inquiry. Our communities also practice significant and varied types of sciences, there isn't one type of science that is better than all the rest, there are just different kinds suited for different experiences and purpose. 

And if there was, it would not be funded by Monsanto, trust and believe.

#trustyourstruggle #trustyourbody#trustthosethatloveandrespectyou

Strange Sisters: Application FAQ’s

Strange Sisters: Application FAQ’s

 

With just under 1 week left to submit your applications, we wanted to share some answers to questions that we have been asked most often.

 

1. Who can apply for Strange Sisters?

This is a performance showcase for Queer Womyn & Trans* Folks. We are prioritizing the experiences and artists who identify as womyn.

 

In recognition of the fact that there are hundreds of different ways to express gender and that gender for some is a fluid journey, we include trans folks in the broadest sense of the term.

You may have had the experience of growing up as a tomboy and then identifying as ‘femme’. You may have been mis-assigned as male from birth and have always sought spaces where you can be affirmed and acknowledge for the womyn that you are. You may be intersex and identify as exactly intersex. You may use masculine pronouns but still identify as a womyn. You may be 2-Spirit, or hijra or any number of gender expressions that are neither male nor female, and this space welcomes you.

 

2. Do you welcome artists from outside of Canada?

Yes we do! We have a small budget for local and some international bus travel to Toronto. We welcome submissions from Montreal, Detroit, New York, DC and other areas surrounding Toronto.

 

3. What kind of art are you looking for?

We offer honorariums (payment) to all accepted artists including visual artists, performance artists and movement artists as some examples. Please ask us if you have specific questions!

 

4. Is ASL confirmed?

Yes it is and we welcome applications from Deaf artists, as we all as folks with varying experiences and abilities.

 

5. Is Buddies a wheelchair accessible space?

Yes it is.

 

6. Can I submit film/video art?

We are open to it! We will definitely consider it to see where and if it fits and is possible.

 

7. Can I submit more then one project?

Yes you can. 

8. Where is the application?

Here!